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VT's avatar

This was a delight to read, the writing, the research, the artwork, the incorporation of music. In a world where everything is supposed to be fast this really helped me slow down. And it has inspired me to get into deep reading once again. Thanks a lot, looking forward to your next articles !

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Utsav Mamoria's avatar

Hey VT, so glad this was worth your time, but super happy that it has pushed you into deep reading. I hope you continue to find books and rabbit holes which you love going into!

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Gautham badikala's avatar

Wonderful , we'll researched, write up. Still trying to wrap my head around about how you could connect two distant dots Mathematics and taste. Looking forward for more such articles.

Thanks a lot

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Utsav Mamoria's avatar

Thank you, Gautham, glad that you found the piece worth your time! Do check out the other pieces as well.

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Cristiana's avatar

Thank you for the time and work you put in your writing. I really appreciate reading your work. When I saw the new post this morning, I saved it for later, when I knew I would have the time to read it with no interruptions. In an online space full of entertainment, value is even more special to find; I'm glad I found your Substack.

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Utsav Mamoria's avatar

Thank you, Cristiana, not just for reading, but for finding my work worthy of carving out time for. In an attention-deficit world, that is the best compliment a writer can get.

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Ved Shankar's avatar

I love the stories and how they led to your main point: go against the 'canon' and follow your curiosity to make stuff you want to see

It sounds like taste should be treated as a practice:

1. Knowing what you like and appreciating it in more detail

2. Expressing what you appreciate through your own work

vs a trait (e.g. he has great taste).

Or purely input based (consume the classics to improve your taste)

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Ved Shankar's avatar

I have an open question with 'going against the grain' with regards to the canon, because when reading the classics, there is a form of friction and pain involved.

Question: Does following our curiousity necessarily mean we are enjoying what we consume?

(e.g. philosophy books are not enjoyable. It's almost like a part-time job to read and understand them. But what you gain from the process can be helpful.)

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Utsav Mamoria's avatar

Thank you, Ved, for reading, and glad you are enjoying it :)

The distinction I make between curiosity and friction is this

If one is reading philosophy because it is helpful, then it may not necessarily be a matter of taste. It could just be a means to an end, something one finds useful and serves a purpose.

If one is reading philosophy because one enjoys it, then I would say it is frictionless curiosity, because even if going through the text maybe hard, it does not feel like a chore. Its how one enjoys doing a hard thing.

On the matter of taste, I strongly feel that taste is about practice. It is not a destination where one can arrive. I think of it as continuous refinement through practice, with no end goal.

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Quinn SK's avatar

Thank you so much for this! I just downloaded some essays about topics that interest me to read at work rather than scrolling. This was an absolute joy to read, thank you thank you thank you.

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Utsav Mamoria's avatar

Thank you, Quinn, for choosing my essay and taking the time to read it completely. Glad that you enjoyed them so much :)

I am most pleased that you are choosing to cultivate your taste and avoid scrolling. More power to you!

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Quinn SK's avatar

the pleasure is all mine! The way you weaved together such different subjects like mathematics, sociology, and buddhism was truly impressive and kept me hooked through the entire thing. I look forward to all your future work.

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Praan's Pages's avatar

A beautiful read. The moment I find that you have published a new article, I carve time out to find an empty corner to read it. The music just added to the whole experience, awakened all my senses.

I have been pondering on the idea of taste ever since I read the essay "How to do great work" by Paul Graham (https://www.paulgraham.com/greatwork.html) . What intrigues me is that he starts his essay by highlighting the three qualities of great work: something you have a natural aptitude for, something you have deep interest in, and something that offers great scope. In essence, it lead me to believe that you need to have a natural interest in a topic to the extent that work which feels painful to others, would be mostly frictionless for you. I like the fact that you mention the friction, and you go ahead to highlight seeking friction :).

So, do you agree with the below?

"There may be some jobs where you have to work diligently for years at things you hate before you get to the good part, but this is not how great work happens. Great work happens by focusing consistently on something you're genuinely interested in. When you pause to take stock, you're surprised how far you've come."

Would be interesting to know your take on the essay! (hope it does not feel like homework).

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Utsav Mamoria's avatar

First, I want to sincerely thank you for carving out time in your life to read my work. In this attention-deficit world, there are a few compliments bigger than this.

Thank you for sharing Paul's essay with me. I had not read this one, but I did now to ensure I am getting the context of the overall essay as well (and no it does not feel like homework!)

I agree with what he says to a large extent. The lines that stood out to me are

"The way to figure out what to work on is by working. If you're not sure what to work on, guess. But pick something and get going. You'll probably guess wrong some of the time, but that's fine."

"What are you excessively curious about — curious to a degree that would bore most other people? That's what you're looking for."

I would put this above everything, and definitely above aptitude. It takes care of friction, going deep and ignoring the cannon. It is only by doing that we figure out what our taste is, and by extension, who we are.

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Hardik Golchha's avatar

Thank you for writing this. Thank you for writing like this, it's a great piece. I never thought I could read 30 mins long posts in one sitting and understand the underlying concept with more curiosity towards the end.

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Utsav Mamoria's avatar

Thank you Hardik, for reaching out! Glad that you found the piece worth your time, and I could hold your attention for 30 mins - one of the best things for a writer to hear from their readers :)

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Jay Joshi's avatar

Utsav ji,

This writing is amazing. I am a writer too, and it gave me an inferiority complex. I mean I never research so deeply for a newsletter. Also, I remember you singing rhapsodies about mathematics in one of your previous newsletters as well. It seems that you studied and live* mathematics!

That said, the newsletter is kind of long. I read a bit, then got bored, took a break, then read some more, and took another break, which lasted for 3 days. Now I am reading again, but now I have forgotten some of it, so I must start from the top.

I would deeply appreciate it if your newsletter could be a bit shorter. Please don't mind.

* here I wanted to type 'you love mathematics, but I made a typo, and now it kind of looks cool, so I kept it that way!

Cheers!

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Utsav Mamoria's avatar

Namaste Jay ji, thank you for your kind words for my writing and I am glad you enjoyed it. I do indeed love mathematics, but don’t know enough of it to live it :)

As for the length, yes I agree it’s pretty long, but that’s the way of writing I enjoy, so unlikely that will change. I know it doesn’t work for everyone, but can’t do much about that :(

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SG's avatar

Loved reading this. Thanks!

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Utsav Mamoria's avatar

Thank you for reading SG! Glad you enjoyed it :)

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Tanushree Goyal's avatar

Thank you for writing this article. I opened it 2-3 times and closed it because I knew I didn’t have 30 minutes at that moment. But today I finally opened it when I had the time for a deep read! And it was worth the wait :)

I’m going to keep it in my saved list to revisit it again and again. It drives the point so beautifully (and scientifically) - like a lovely painting that compels you to stare at it just a tad bit longer.

Also (and I say this with the most genuine feeling and not to mock) - I have this ‘ick’- it’s probably because I went to a convent school and certain things were just drilled into us quite efficiently!

It’s “receive”

(It’s a gift we all ‘recieved’ in the cradle)

where the e precedes the i and the spelling doesn’t follow the same pattern as similar sounding words like “believe”! Whenever i see it, I see it like a zoomed in image and can’t unsee it. Like I said it’s an “ick” and I have to live with it.

I thought I’d share it here because maybe my taste develops from all these “icks” that I tend to have.

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Utsav Mamoria's avatar

Hi Tanushree, I am so pleased to hear it was worth the wait, and you will be re-visiting it over the coming days. The fact that you scheduled time to read this is one of the best things a writer can hear. Also, thank you for sharing the correction, but I don't wish to change it because those were the words of Grothendieck and I am quoting his text, so have to let things remain as they are.

But yes, our taste does develop from the 'icks' we have :)

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Deepak Gupta's avatar

Thank you for writing this, Utsav. You’ve clearly found your taste, and it shows.

It reminded me of when I was working on my master’s thesis. It was an engineering topic I loved, and I’d get completely sucked in. I’d do 18-hour work sprints, wake up not knowing if it was day or night. My flatmates thought I’d lost it and would probably fail.

But I was having fun, reading papers, designing experiments, testing them in the lab, finding new books in the library. I did submit my thesis and got good marks, but honestly, those didn’t matter. I had already had my time with it. By the time the results came in, I was obsessed with another engineering problem at my internship.

Your writing brought that feeling back. That joy of chasing good problems and going deep. Engineering or otherwise.

I guess it’s time to do that in other parts of life too.

I’ll come back to this in a few days—love how good writing shows you something new each time.

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Utsav Mamoria's avatar

Hey Deepak, thank you for your kind words, and I hope you find more to think about when you return to this piece. Most importantly, I hope you find in life problems or things in life to get obsessed with, just like you did for your master's thesis.

And yes, I am chasing these 'life' questions which I am struggling with and thinking about, and only by going deep am I understanding myself better.

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Nirupama V's avatar

Thank you for writing this, Utsav! This piece gave me solace in two awkward forced situations where it saved me from my social anxiety by letting me escape into something deep.

Having the strong urge to take the next week off and read/watch/listen to things that I've saved for later but never made time for. Will you sign my leave letter, please?

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Utsav Mamoria's avatar

Leave letter signed in triplicate with one copy each sent to your workplace and to your social anxiety!

I am glad it helped you escape and you found it a worthy place to escape to :)

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hmm's avatar

One might say that, David Smith is a 'Mind Hatter' heheh. Get it coz the tile was a hat... And well the reference to the character is because Lewis Carroll (also a mathematician ) supposedly expressed his disdain for Willaim Hamliton's work on Quaternions while writing Alice in Wonderland! ( https://www.npr.org/2010/03/13/124632317/the-mad-hatters-secret-ingredient-math)

Ps: i wasn't expecting to read such a math heavy write up, but thanks to your wonderful writing everthing added up. And I definitely wasn't expecting to reply with a somewhat math fact?

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Utsav Mamoria's avatar

Ooh, you have given me mathematics gossip! Thank you so much for sharing this. I enjoyed reading it. Happy to know that things added up eventually :)

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Nikita's avatar

I am so glad to find newsletters that are cultivating taste instead of chasing algorithms. The wonder that you introduced with each story is commendable.

I am also wondering what defines taste for you? And how do you see it different from preferences?

Also wondering, how did you learn so much about mathematics? What curiosity led you to know so much to draw a meaningful connection? And if it was research for this piece alone, what made you choose/discover mathematical point of references?

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Utsav Mamoria's avatar

Hi Nikita, thank you for reading, and I am glad you enjoyed it :)

I define taste as something I am willing to suffer pain for. Go through friction, read things that are difficult for me to comprehend and understand, something for which I will go out of my way to engage, inform and indulge myself. I see preference as something you choose, but may not necessarily want to go deep into. E.g. I have a preference for the history of food, but I don't want to go too deep into it. I read a book about it once in a while.

So maybe what I am saying goes back to the point of being intentional and having direction.

Onto mathematics, I have always enjoyed it since my time in school. I don't have any formal training in mathematics, though I do have hands-on training in statistics. My larger belief is that all arts and sciences are ways for us to understand ourselves and our place in the universe. So I do read about math, science and art, especially the stories and the underlying philosophy, which informs a lot of my writing. You did imply that I know a lot about mathematics - I assure you, I do not. I am an enthusiast at best, though I would love it if people found mathematics a little more accessible through my writing.

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Niddd. S's avatar

I have spent just 15 mins in the read and oh my head is revolving with no gravity attached to it

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Utsav Mamoria's avatar

And now I am wondering if you enjoyed it that much or if it made no sense to you. Either ways, thank you for taking the time to read!

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Riya Jadhav's avatar

Absolutely loved reading this. It was insightful, well-structured, and felt like something straight out of my own inner monologue. The anecdotes and stories added so much depth. Thank you for putting in the time and thought to create and share this. Keep it up!

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Utsav Mamoria's avatar

Thank you, Riya for taking the time to read, and glad you enjoyed it! Comments like yours keep me going, and I hope you will find future pieces worth your time!

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